DeLaina  

“People say addiction is a choice, but they ignore that it’s a disease. Getting help isn’t as simple as deciding to stop – it takes deep commitment and trust.” 

My name is DeLaina, and I’m enrolled with the Ute Mountain Ute Tribe. I grew up in Towaoc and Ignacio, Colo. I’m currently preparing to start a position with Tribal Services, helping Social Services, Vocational Rehabilitation, Emergency Family Services, and Food Distribution. My days are flexible, going where I’m needed, and I’m proud I can serve the community while I continue to build my life. 

My addiction began in 2019 with a single oxycodone pill laced with fentanyl. At the time I didn’t know much about fentanyl nor how dangerous it could be. One quarter of a pill gave me minor symptoms of an overdose, and yet that didn’t stop me. Over the next two years, I used many substances: pills, alcohol, and more; losing myself along the way. I stayed isolated and was ashamed, no one really knew what was going on in my life. I thought I could manage it on my own, but my addiction was something that couldn’t be handled alone.   

In 2021, I finally decided to ask for help. With guidance from Behavioral Health Services, I was introduced to therapy and treatment called Suboxone, a medication to help opioid disorder. I was asked to flush what I had. I took a piece of suboxone, and threw myself into withdrawal, that moment I realized I was done. I never wanted to feel that again. I began the road to recovery. It wasn’t easy, nor was it instant, but it was the moment I reclaimed my life. I’ve been sober for four years. 

Recovery has taught me the value of life, support and community. My baby sister has been my confidant, holding me accountable and reminding me that I am not alone. I’ve also sought spiritual healing through ceremonies, and sweats, which also helped me connect with my culture and strength.  

Today, I feel grounded, resilient and hopeful. I’m committed to sharing my story to help others understand the dangers of addiction and the possibility of recovery. I want people to know that it’s okay to ask for help, to set boundaries, and walk the Red Road in their own way. I survived addiction and I’m thriving not only for me, but my son, my family and anyone who might see their own journey reflected in mine.